hey all sorry to keep posting about the same thing but that was mainly been on my mind lately.
anyhow he came to my bday party a seemed to have a reeally good time he gave me a hug when he frist got there. he also gave me a card he wrote with a really nice meassage in it. I really feel like I could make him and me more then friends, the way I phrased that does not sound good but I think you know what Iam trying to say. anyhow my question is how do I make it know that I might want to be more than freinds with out actully saying it too him?

hey all I just thought I would post somemore about Me and GC. the other day i was chatting with him on facebook. He asked why I kept contact him when he was on. I said that I liked talk to my friends when I saw they were online. anyhow he end up asking what I want for our reltionship. I did not want to be honest and say that I wanted him to be my boyfriend caues I had no idea what he was going to say. anyhow I said I dont know yet. he said he wants to be my friend. someone pointed out to me that using the words our realtionship does not seems like a phrase you would say to someone you just want to be friends with. what do you guys think. GC and I went to a play on friday night after he walked me home he gave me a hug.

okay all i am posting more about GC. i went out to dinner with him last thursday. It went good. He did not mention religion, that much. So I think that other stuff i heard was just rumors and gossip for the others in the cast. He seemed to have a good time. I really do not know if he likes me as a friend or is hoping for something more like I am. I am not usually, going to a get this kind of .signals. He did pay me a few compliments he said I had a brilliant, mind and that i had had a very unique, look and should go into movies. we have made plans to go out again. anyhow I said before i really like him. I found out that some of the others cast members pulled a really nasty prank on him. I wont go into detail but he was a real mean high school level thing to do. I felt really bad for him. anyhow wish me luck that it all goes well.

hey all i have written anything on this in ages. but not much is going on. there is a new guy that I am crushing on. He was in the most reccent play I was in. anyhow there is just something about him that draws me too him. well besides the obvious that he very very nice looking. He and I have made tetive plans to hang out soemtime soon. anyhow, i dont like tell person name so i will call him GC. anyhow the promblem is GC i a bit Religious . on his facebook he has list his Religious views as Infinite Love. I have no idea what that means, anyhow i was taking to one of the other cast members and she said he try to save her. I talk to my cousin about this and he said to try and hang out with him anyhow, since we dont know what actully went on. NO one but me in the cast really liked him that much anyhow. I guess the point of my ramblings are if I dont hang out with him and brings up religious stuff what should i do. I all so think that this guy is an aspie. it hard to say why but he sets my aspiedar off big time anyhow I will let you all know what happens.

I found a email in my work email about that they were looking for persons to march in the LGBT pide parade. i was wondering if i should do it. he are the reason i hesitating


1. well if my went my co workers would why i was. yes i know i should not care but some person at work are very anit gay etc. i dont think they would understand what genderqueer is an would wrongly assume i was gay. I i said above i should not give a rat ass what other think but I cannot help it.


2. I hate crowds adue to my aspergers and would proably be freaked out.

this is more about the guy that i have a crush on. it will not post his real name i will just call him by he chracters name mowgli. anyhow I would like to get to know him better. I really can remeber only one or two times we talked togther. It he seems to like this other girl in class, becaues she well lets say well endowed. anyhow on the last day of class. i am going to pass around and adress book and have every one write the phone number and email. then maybe if I am brave i will call him. btw the way i dont feel as storgly about him as i do my other crushes but it think i will try and befreind him. Like i said in my last entry, his has a GF. but if i hang around him for awhile they might break up and then he will come to me. yes that is my evil plan.

latley i have been thinking about realtionships. i would like to be dating someboy. however i feel scared do to my assexulity issues. I belive that most guys want sex as part of a realtionship. I no there are guys out there that are asexxual aslo. I have checked those dating sites. it seems like they sites have alot more woman than men and the guys that are on it around here are all really young. speaking of young guys, i have a bit of a crush on a guy thats in the play with me. today i found out he is only 20. he has a GF. anyhow but i would like to befreind him at least. lets say if he want dating do you all think that he would be to young for me? depending on when he bday is he is like 10 or 11 years younger than me?

sorry i have not witten anything in a long time. he was new in my life my uncle mike lost his battle with cancer and died about a week ago. its sad it was not even 60 yet. today was the first peromanc eof the jungle book. it went prety good i muffed a line slightly but it was all right. the audiance wad all 1st graders they were cute kids. not much else going on here.

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the spring semesters started a few weeks ago. i am taking childerns theatre: elematry. we put on a play for k-5 grades we are doing the jungle book. I am plaing a monkey and mowgil's liitle human brother. i wanted to be shere kan the tiger but the teacher/director thought i was to small to look scary a the villain. i was mad at first a bit. but know I doesnt bother me.